I forgot to mention that I have to meet with a radiation oncologist on Monday at 1:30 to determine if I need radiation treatment. In my mind I have already decided I don't need it since the pathology showed my lymph nodes were clean and it will also wreck the result of my reconstruction. I really hope he doesn't say anything differently.

One other distressing note, I had to go shopping to buy bras that will fit the new me and accommodate my big old chest mound. That was absolutely depressing - standing in a change room with a floor to ceiling mirror, brilliantly lit, showing off my scarred body in all its glory. I almost started crying.

I went to bed when I got home.